Unconnected Thoughts....

Did u ever wanted to be something important, something meaningful in your life, did u ever feel the urge from inside that something is missing, that there is a void inside that is to be filled by an alien thing that u don’t even know though u have lived most of your life thinking about it. There are many emotions like this that pass by in my mind as a thought, and keep me occupied in most of my conscious time. These emotions has to be expressed in some way, some do it by acting some do it by dancing or singing but as m still in search of the passion that will help me to express myself, so at this beautiful eve of New Year I will try to jolt down all my thoughts that pop up in my mind by writing it out.

They say that u need a dream to become something, u all have an unsolved mystery in your life called as ‘destiny’ and one day you will realise the dream of that u always wanted to be. But my question to all of them is what if “u have not seen the dream yet”? It’s not that I don’t want to be something or I don’t dream but here again they all are ambiguous; they don’t lead my thoughts anywhere. I think its human nature to get influenced by the environment, u see a successful person n u wish u could be him. In the same way different phases of my life made me dream of different things that I could or should be, like a cricketer during childhood I grew up a bit and wanted to be like actor n singer, director or may be something filmy, I grew up further and wanted to be like politician or something to make a change in the system. And further I considered zillion other options, but the society killed all my armature dreams and made me do something I never have considered as an option. Welcome to the strange and alien world of technical knowledge.......... I got admitted into engineering, and I naively accepted what they chose for me.

I could have fought, I could have been resilient but what I had to fight against them...............ambitions,dreams that led me nowhere in this material world. I have always believed in destiny, that we all are sent here for some purpose for a particular task that we have to accomplish. And still waiting desperately for the part that I will play in the dynamics of the universe. I should not give up; I should keep trying, keep striving in search of something that I don’t know. I don’t walk into the grave without knowing my part in the game.
But what I intensely form depth of my heart feel is that we all are on “A DATE WITH DESTINY”; hope u are lucky enough to play your part in the game.

(My thoughts don’t connect too well, so I don’t care for the people who don’t like them in anyway.)